ytd i watched my bf eat steak, prawns, spaghetti, wanton soup and duck rice. i could only feel happy for him. that he gets to eat. of course i wish i were the one gobbling down the foods but i had to stick to my water fasting plan. day 2 let's go.
im sitting below my block to read the ebook that the reverend has sent me. i hope God makes him my mentor. i really really want to learn from him. pls answer my prayers God. there has been nothing but blessings everytime i enter Zion. love that church.
ive lost 6kg since i started jogging and eating vegan which was at the start of the year. im attempting a water fast for the next 9 days and see how much weight i'll lose. i'm thinking of doing 9 then eat very little during CNY and continue my fast afrer that till the month ends. lets see how it goes. the last time i had a meal was at 3pm today. havent eaten in 12 hours i'm having difficulty sleeping. not sleeping not tired not hungry. which is a good sign. but i think i'll be hungry before the day ends tomorrow. i hope not. my legs are tired because i walked the whole day today. i bought a dress. a red dress from f21. my bf said sth today that motivated me even more to get that dream body. he said that if ur body looks good youll look good in anything. im a poor student. so i need to have a good looking body so i can just invest in cheap clothes.
this life is just about not dying, preventing diseases, enjoying it. so how can we not die prematurely? and die peacefully. is the vegan diet really a disease proof diet?
as if he could read my mind, he kisses me on the forehead. not once not twice but everyday, multiple times a day. showing the great lover that he is. thanks L for the lovely time.
today my bf made me choose between him and Jesus. I said, Jesus of course. You know he is important to me. God help me. Why are things going so wrong suddenly.
without any sleep, i went to Zion serangoon in an attempt to know God more. this reminds me of Charity in Driven By Eternity. its calming to know that i have the right intentions. Out of wanting to be closer to the pulpit i sat right in front of the horizontal aisle and someone suddenly said hey. i turned and it was an old man. i was hesitant at first because i dont usually communicate with people that old. nevertheless i introduced myself. i learned that his name was David and he went on to give me a namecard. i then realised that he was a Reverend! i was shocked because i have never been this close to anyone who has taken the pulpit. I seriously am in luck, I thought! Someone knowledgeable and so experienced can teach me more about God now! he looked to be in his 80s with his white hair. but i think he's just 75 because he looks healthy and has vitality. i felt really blessed instantly. a friendly pastor huh? so he went on to tell me about his life experiences and Gods miraculo...
so ive decided to go raw. i just bought 3 packets of mushrooms. and ill eat them raw. as we're talking im mentally preparing myself to eat raw broccolis tomorrow. ive decided to blend it up with my salads and consume it with spirulina. spirulina is my source of protein and i have no complains. everyone who has had spirulina knows it doesnt taste good. it has a fishy taste and smell. well its a seaweed. i hope to be 45kg by June. i have 5months. 5 months to rebuild my body. day 1 tomorrow. goodnight.